On Fear and Writing

I get so scared to write anything anymore, there is so much fear inside me. Fear that I’ll never write anything worth while again, fear that anonymous critics will rip my efforts apart from afar, fear that I’ll be a forgotten soul who only tried to make a difference in this world, by saying things that mattered.

As I release each book, I feel as though they are only tiny drops hitting the ground. When what is really desired is to make a huge splash, I’d love to be that offer that everyone is talking about, the one that sells millions of copies and is a multiple time best seller.

However, I know that this never happens in the blink of an eye, it takes much grit and focus to keep going. So in a sense this is my confession, to you, my fellow writer. My hope is that through this confession, we both can be comforted, and also that we might fight our way toward the light.

And with that, I leave you with the words of Rocky

“Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place and I don’t care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done!”
Sylvester Stallone, Rocky Balboa

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